Sunday, December 28, 2008

Thank yous & Good News & everything comes in threes

First of all I want to thank everyone for your support on Christmas eve and Christmas Day. Even though there was no one at my house Christmas morning, thanks to you, I did not feel alone at all. What a wonderful group of people. You all took time out of your Christmas holiday to lend a helping hand and I am so touched by your kindness.

Now for the good news! I lost 3 lbs! I am now at 372. I could not believe it. I thought for sure I had gained 5 lbs because I wasn't eating well when I was sick. 3 lbs is a huge step in the right direction! And now for the other good news.... on the 26th my family started feeling better and asked me over for a late Christmas dinner. I drank a ton of water all day and a nice big salad with a side of fat free salad dressing before I went over to have dinner. The plan worked out very well. I took a little spoonful of everything I wanted to try for my first plate and ate it slow while we chatted around the table. Then when everyone else went back for seconds I picked two of the dishes I really really wanted and had about 1/3 cup of each. It worked out great!

I look forward to this next week.
My goals
Blog at least 3 times this week. I wanted to say everyday I know that if I missed one day I would beat myself up about it. I will be happy with 3.
Drink 64oz at at least 3 times this week!
Do something active 3 time this week!
And the most important goal of all I WILL NOT BEAT MYSELF UP IF I DON'T COMPLETE ALL OF MY GOALS.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Back Sliding

*sigh* I have had a horrible 2 days. I got sick with the flu and somehow made it an excuse not to watch what I eat and not to stay on top of my water intake. I fear getting on the scale Saturday. I overate so much the last 2 days. I am very frustrated. I don't understand why I did it. I guess I was feeling sick and wanted comfort. My whole family is sick now and Christmas is being called off. It's Christmas eve and I am all alone. I am really hurting. I keep asking myself how I got here. 31 years old. No kids, no husband, and no job. I am tired of feeling this way! I want to live a normal life. I never go anywhere these days because it takes so much effort to move around. I want to much to make a change. I want to finish school. I want to lose this weight. I want to find a good job. I want to stop stuffing my face with food.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

walking grrrrr

It's a beautiful day today and I know that I need to go for a walk. I understand the benefits for my physical and mental health. But it is already 2:30 and I have yet to take my walk. The first step always seems to be the hardest. However I know that I can do it. I am just wasting time thinking about it. Instead of spending my whole day worrying over it I am going to take my 15 minute walk even though I don't really want too. Then I can come back and enjoy the rest of my day and feel good about what I have done. I want to add that all of your blogs really help and made a huge difference in my day today. Your blogs honestly were the reminder I needed to persevere. so off I go now to take my walk. Oh, one more thing. I did drink 64 oz yesterday!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

The first day

I woke up this morning and decided to make a commitment to myself. Most of my life I have looked to others for love. Today I will start loving myself by taking care of me. The biggest problem in my life has always been my weight. I believe that is the best place to start becoming a healthier me. My weight today is 375 lbs. I know if I am to be successful in losing weight I need to start with small goals. I have know that I don't drink enough water and that sometimes I eat because I am thirsty. I don't realize it until I have overeaten. So my goal this week is to drink water first if I feel hungry. I want to drink at least 64 oz a day. That will be my only goal for the week. I will not worry about changing anything else about my diet for this week.