Wednesday, December 24, 2008
*sigh* I have had a horrible 2 days. I got sick with the flu and somehow made it an excuse not to watch what I eat and not to stay on top of my water intake. I fear getting on the scale Saturday. I overate so much the last 2 days. I am very frustrated. I don't understand why I did it. I guess I was feeling sick and wanted comfort. My whole family is sick now and Christmas is being called off. It's Christmas eve and I am all alone. I am really hurting. I keep asking myself how I got here. 31 years old. No kids, no husband, and no job. I am tired of feeling this way! I want to live a normal life. I never go anywhere these days because it takes so much effort to move around. I want to much to make a change. I want to finish school. I want to lose this weight. I want to find a good job. I want to stop stuffing my face with food.