update

I had a great first week at school. In one of my classes all of the seating was table and chairs. However the other class did have those stupid desks that have the chair attached. Lucky for me they had a little table and chair in the corner. It still is a little embarrassing but it is better than getting stuck. I am loving my American government class. The teacher is great! My Chemistry class is alright.

Diet wise I have been doing ok. I have not been counting calories but I have also not been over eating. The great thing is that I have been exercising everyday and I have no problem at all with night eating anymore.

Going to my first class of the semester tonight

I am heading to class soon. I am a bit nervous. I hope I fit in the desk. I am going a few minutes early so that if I don't fit, no one will see me struggle with it. I look forward to never having to think of this again.

Other than that I am feeling very good today. I took the time and the money to go to the hazard waste management plant to drop off my old dead computer instead of just throwing it in the dumpster at home. I feel like I did a little bit of good for the safety of someone's drinking water.

Thanks for all of your comments. I hope to have time to write to all of you before I go to bed tonight.

Busy Busy Busy

I have been so busy getting reading for school which starts Tuesday that I forgot to post my weight lost. I didn't weigh last week due to pms so my weight loss for the last 2 weeks is 12lbs!!! I am saying good by to my 370's and one pound shy of saying good by to my 360's!!!

Goals for next week

log my food no matter how busy I am.

Keep up with my homework for school if I have any.

Continue to not eat at night. I almost don't even think about it any more.

stay on top of my laundry. I am starting the begining of the week with an empty hamper and I would like to end my week with an empty hanger.

work out 5 times this week.

This has been a very rewarding week. I feel good and energetic. I met all of the goals I set last week. I also started taking an iron supplement and I don't feel sluggish anymore. The house is clean. I have every thing I need for school and I am ready to hit the ground running this week!

No worries

Everything is going very very well. I have just been extremely busy. I will update tomorrow since it is my weigh in day. I will leave you with some great news. I have not had one binge and I have not done any night eating. yay!

Last night was horrible......this morning pure joy!

Well it started around midnight. I couldn't sleep and I wanted to eat. I tossed and turned. That didn't help. I sat on the edge of my bed, rocking back and forth and sobbing. I wanted to eat so bad. I felt like my only salvation was sleep and I just could not fall asleep. So I got up and walked into the kitchen. I looked at the fridge and walked away crying. I was not going to go down that path again. Then I paced back and forth in my living room for what must of been an hour. I went back to my room around 4:00am turned on the t.v. and finally fell asleep around 5:00am.

This morning I felt very tired but happier than I have felt in years. This was huge for me. 90% of my overeating comes from eating at night. I use to eat a half box of cereal with a half a quart of milk and load it with raisins and sugar.That was around midnight. Then if I got up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom I would head to the kitchen and open a can of chili and take it to bed with me and eat the whole thing out of the can. Sometimes I would grab 2 things of crackers and a jar of peanut butter and eat it till I passed out.

I realize now that I used food as a comfort tool to fall asleep, kind of like how one gives a bottle of warm milk to a baby before bed time.

Tonight my new comfort will be all the support you guys have given me and the joy I know I will have when I wake up in the morning because I made it another night.

you guys are wonderful and I am so greatful to have you in my life.

Great Day!

I am heading to bed now to avoid the munchies. I am very thankful for all of your support. I had a great day. I stayed on track with food and water intake. I also got a little walking in. I plan to not snack tonight. I know it will get easier and I will feel better about me with each small step. After seeing the Biggest Loser I know I can step up my activity tomorrow. Good night everyone. sleep well. Tomorrow is a brand new day!

what an awful night, but I made it all night with out eating.

It was horrible. I tossed and turned all night. Eating at night has really become a habit. I even had dreams of eating. At one point I got up to go to the bathroom and found myself heading for the kitchen. I am proud to say I stopped myself. I was so happy when morning came! I can't remember the last time I made it all night with out eating something. This is a huge breakthrough for me because I eat most of my calories in the middle of the night. Thank you all for your support. Reading about your good days and rough days has helped me so much to come forward and face my problems and be honest about them. You are all an inspiration to keep going and never give up.

cravings

I really want to eat something right now. For years midnight snacking has been a daily activity. Tonight it ends. I have had plenty of good things to eat today and I know my body doesn't need anymore food. It has become such a habit that I could set my clock to my nightly food urges. My stomach is grumbly but I know it is a mental thing. So for now there is only one option. I am going to bed with out stopping by the fridge! Good night and good luck tomorrow.

water,salt, and being a woman just don't mix sometimes.

There is honestly no point in getting on the scale this week. I didn't binge but I did eat some sunflower seeds as a health snack because I was craving something salty. However I did not keep in mind the time of month it was. The next day I woke up retaining so much water that even my fingers were swollen. Note to ones self STAY AWAY FROM THE SALT. LOL. As far as my goals for last week the only one I didn't follow was writing 3 times a week. I did drink water and I did do active things. And I did not beat myself up for not completing my goals. All in all I feel pretty damn good. I did find out this week that I have pre-diabetes. Just more of a reason to get healthy.

Goals for this week.
keep track of food intake, water intake, and activity level(idea taken from stages of change)
sign up for spring semester
no eating in bed.
no candy
set reminder on phone to weigh in on sunday morning before I eat.
look for job.


I feel like this is going to be a great week